AHHHH! my back feels so much better on ice... too bad it doesn't feel good without the ice. I guess I have to live on an ice pack. Actually, I think I am going to give in and start physical therapy this week! Honestly, I don't want to spend the money and don't know when I will have the time but I don't feel like I have any other choice. I need to do something to save my sanity! I know I'm not the first one to figure out that dealing with chronic pain can make you very grouchy and really make you lose yourself! Honesty, I've been thinking a lot about Donnie and his back pain he had to deal with for years!!! It is no wonder he transformed into someone different than I married and then he turned to putting other substances into his body to get through the pain. Thinking of this sad situation makes my back almost hurt more! Now, tell me that isn't a head a game? I feel like I have to overcome and mentally beat this stupid back pain (that maybe is all 'in my head' but I gotta kick it!)
Okay, I am going to go to bed,,, on the ice pack! When I wake up, no matter how much my back hurts I am going to tell myself it doesn't hurt and I feel great! Lots of positive self talk and a phone call to the PT clinic for me tomorrow!